Rediscovering Rayleane

There was a period in my life were daydreaming and fictional writing became my comfort zone. For every frustrations, sadness and new experiences, I would immediately convert it as a backdrop to my stories. Yes, it was fun and I never regret any of it. Daydreaming helped me cope up with a lot of teenage challenges. The untimely school transfers, the new environment, feeling of never ever belonging and consistent longing for my old friends. Fast forward 14 years later, where everything is so hectic and there is barely enough time to sleep, even more to daydream. The realization that despite the promising career unfolding in front of me, those Rayleane days were still the most peaceful ones. It was easy playing the good girl as I believe it was the real me. Nowadays, being a good girl is such a struggle. A struggle between a woman trying to find her place in the society and the girl just wanting to daydream. 14 years is not that long period and Rayleane days is not that far from where I am right now. Day by day, I will try to retrace my steps and reclaim those feelings during my daydreaming days. Who knows, with the young girl and the woman combined, there will even be a better me. =)